March 28, 2014
drew this butterfly today (in progress, not final)
i always enjoy asking people about their dreams. often, people interpret “dream” as “thing I’ve wanted since I was 5,” but really, “dream” just refers to “thing that presently makes your heart pound,” be it one five minutes old or five decades.
this girl here, she’s looking off into the distance at glitter and circle and dash, but when she turns around and stares at you straight in the eye you’ll see a force you couldn’t have expected. it is the look of the dreamer. you just never knew because she wasn’t looking at you before.
Just for fun before this awesome art party (arty) that we checked out. What’s funny is that once James (above left) mentioned that they had chalk I got totally distracted and started playing for two hours, thereby sidetracking the entire group…
Party was awesome though. The vibe at Crowdtilt is super chill, ie. here, where I’ve drawn all over their freshly painted, new, non-chalk (!) walls. We made it happen!
Each day, pulling away layers of dead skin and self
“What does it even mean to love someone? It seems almost impossible to universally define such a complex state of mind since we all experience life so uniquely. I guess love is something you just have to experience and define for yourself. On a whole, I’ve experienced it as being committed to someone I am passionately interested in. Someone who helps me discover aspects of myself I didn’t see before and for whom I can do the same. Someone I trust, respect, and share experiences with. Someone I can be my kind of weird with."
With your work, your life.
"All the decisions I’ve made have been based on whether I’m happy where I’m at. If I’m not, I just make a change. There’s something to be said about being financially stable, which I wasn’t for a long time, but I’m doing better now and I feel like I learned so much from that experience. Not everyone can do that because we all have different responsibilities, but we can all at least work toward what we want to do in some capacity. If you are truly passionate about something, it has to happen.
The most seemingly obvious things are the ones that are so hard to do for a lot of people. There’s a perception that people who are successful at something are just good and didn’t work at it. I want to show people that everyone creative is the same; everyone goes through the same struggles. When you feel like your work is not that good, you’re right there—you have to keep pushing. The moment you stop pushing is when you give up and then you’ll never know what could have been.”
March 26, 2014
March 25, 2014
fly, not crawl.
go with the wind.
yin / yang.
I’ve basically been obsessively drawing deer for the last month. It is very strange and several friends have remarked upon it.
It stems from a very visceral and magical experience that I had once when I was camping about a year ago. I felt like I was “Deer Queen” (still am); I and the forest and sea were all one. But really, I was convinced that I was a deer for a good hour and a half and the flowers and I took breaths in tandem (yes, I’m definitely very cool).
Little sketch I made yesterday before I went to bed:
I realized that when I’m actively trying to draw something “Great” my work turns out a lot stiffer than when I’m just having fun (which also has the ultimate upside of, by definition, just being fun). I tend to like what I make a lot more, too.
I can’t wait to hang this in my bathroom… or something.
top of mind for today:
- portfolio site
- talk slides
- planning tokyo + santorini + taipei/hk/hangzhou (yes. yes.)
- a billion other things
March 20, 2014
March 16, 2014
“Loss,” he tells me, “is a theme that I think a lot about, and it’s something in my work that I dwell on. I think when you experience any kind of loss, especially the kind I did, you have questions about survival: Why do some people thrive in situations that others can’t tolerate? Would I be able to survive and get on in the world on my own?”