April 09, 2014
April 09, 2014
April 09, 2014
This is what I’m always gonna remember about Beyoncé: She takes you in. She looks you straight in your eyes when she’s talking to you. I said [to myself], That is the trait of an honest person—if you can look someone in the eye, a total stranger. In those days she was, ‘Yes, ma’am, yes, ma’am,’ to me, but she looked me right straight in the eye, does not blink, it seems. She really takes you in. And it takes another honest person to not flinch when someone’s looking your straight in the eye, because that person is reading you, but also revealing to you that, “I’m gonna be straight-up with you, whether you like it or not.” I saw the boldness of her. To this day, when you talk to her, it’s the same thing. And I always say, “Wow you still do that.”
She still does that and I believe it’s a good quality to have as a businesswoman. As much as she’s a creative force, she’s a businesswoman. When you’re doing business with people, you should really look them in the eye and I really think that people feel very empowered when someone completely takes you in. I’ve seen her walk into a room and say, “Hi I’m Beyoncé,” and I’m always thinking, “They know who you are,” in the back of my head. But the respect that she shows everyone—everyone—is important. That’s very, very vivid to me. Another thing that sticks out to me is how quiet she was, even though she looks you in the eye. She was the one that would take in everything and not say anything; and when she did say something, it was something that she had thought about.
- meet the people behind beyonce (funny story, I actually met the woman in this article at last year’s glamour shoot)
I’m making some changes. I don’t know why, but they feel right. My intuition tells me that this is the best kind of change. One that is free from any self expectation but has the feel of anything possible. I tell my friends that lately I have been feeling unchained.
The first is, I’m moving out. No longer am I tied to an apartment.
The second is, I’m taking a monthlong break to some of my favorite places in Asia. America is wonderful, but I miss that strange place, a motherland that isn’t really mine.
The last is, I put myself to the universe once more.
So different I feel from where I was last year. I felt very tied to where I was - lease, commitments, personal ties. Now, I am free. I can decide to go wherever or meditate in the courtyard if one feels right. I don’t have much, and I won’t, but I have this.
Just sat outside the Starbucks on Castro (Mountain View, not my Castro) with my Dad as we waited for my train. The perfect idyllic scene - birds chirping, clean broad sidewalks, all on one of those deceptively sunny days that are actually cold.
I spoke at Hike Con this weekend and it was a blast and a half. I’m not sure if I’m any good at public speaking (it’s really hard to evaluate yourself when you have to watch a video or listen to a recording of yourself. I’m too focused on the “is that what my face looks like / my voice sounds like???”), but I really do enjoy it. I think I would also enjoy stand up comedy (I had taking a class on my summer 2011 bucket list but never did, I’m realizing now).
One of the speakers, Stewart, spoke about acts of love. Actually, if I were to extract one singular theme from the conference, and all things and experiences honest, it was to the value of sharing love with others.
Stewart talked about how everyday, he would make sure to show care and love to the world around him. In the mornings, if he’s the first one out the door he will squeeze some toothpaste on to his wife’s brush for her to find when she wakes. And vice versa for her. Isn’t that the most delightful act of love?
But also, love manifests itself into kindness and care towards others, not just your partner and family. My dad was jogging back to the car because he briefly thought he lost his phone - but I noticed that didn’t stop him from waiting for five seconds to hold the door for someone entering when he exited the Starbucks. My dad is also like my greatest hero, so seeing these casual acts of character just makes me really happy.
Peel back the layers to the deepest onion and you’ll find the most tender soul brimming with love, always. I want to be as close to the core as I can be.
I touched on this in my talk, too - one reason why I love design and art over business is because these fields, at their best (and therefore in the truest sense that I personally aspire towards) are about giving to other people. The product designer who fights for the user. They call it *user* experience, *user* interface for a reason. The illustrator who is constantly thinking about the story for the reader. The artist who expresses self through their work, thereby giving such a gift to the world.
Compare to business, whose bottom line is $$$. This is important professionally, but I find that concentrating so wholly on making money and building systems to optimize and make more money skews my own perspective on what is important personally.
Which is why I love design - because if I’m the obsessive type of person who blurs the line between work and life anyway (life informs work, work is fun), I might as well choose something that skews me the right way. Right / wrong, actually scratch that - the way I aspire to.
That was the first thing that Hike Con reminded me of. Showing love towards others.
Second thing was showing love to yourself. Loving yourself means letting yourself breath and functioning without all these crazy expectations that we build up for ourselves to have it figured out. It also means that if we are to singularly choose between what is practical and what brings us joy (as practicality I find is the biggest excuse I personally face) we will do our best to choose the latter, and if we cant, because we all have different life situations and sometimes the practical needs to win to survive, you will promise yourself to rope off twenty minutes at night to be that ten year old kid again after your day commitments are over. Love yourself… Defend yourself and don’t let others’ expectations dictate your own and your heart turn into a shriveled bean curd thing.
There is that Churchill quote that I love - friends who don’t want you to fly will help you crawl. Fly, don’t crawl. Seek to help others do so as well.
Anyway, my dad and I talked about what we were each gonna do today. I’ve got a giant chalkboard with my name (literally) on it and the next stretch of day to play with it. Thanks for reading my rambles written from on a train. LEECE
April 04, 2014
My friend Tymm showed me this style that he did for one of his own speaking slides and it totally inspired me to
go hand letter all of my slides for an upcoming talk I’m giving at Hike Con this weekend. It has been a very fun last 3 hours, although I am going to go not look at a computer now. temporarily insane
March 28, 2014
drew this butterfly today (in progress, not final)
i always enjoy asking people about their dreams. often, people interpret “dream” as “thing I’ve wanted since I was 5,” but really, “dream” just refers to “thing that presently makes your heart pound,” be it one five minutes old or five decades.
this girl here, she’s looking off into the distance at glitter and circle and dash, but when she turns around and stares at you straight in the eye you’ll see a force you couldn’t have expected. it is the look of the dreamer. you just never knew because she wasn’t looking at you before.
Just for fun before this awesome art party (arty) that we checked out. What’s funny is that once James (above left) mentioned that they had chalk I got totally distracted and started playing for two hours, thereby sidetracking the entire group…
Party was awesome though. The vibe at Crowdtilt is super chill, ie. here, where I’ve drawn all over their freshly painted, new, non-chalk (!) walls. We made it happen!
Each day, pulling away layers of dead skin and self
“What does it even mean to love someone? It seems almost impossible to universally define such a complex state of mind since we all experience life so uniquely. I guess love is something you just have to experience and define for yourself. On a whole, I’ve experienced it as being committed to someone I am passionately interested in. Someone who helps me discover aspects of myself I didn’t see before and for whom I can do the same. Someone I trust, respect, and share experiences with. Someone I can be my kind of weird with."
With your work, your life.
"All the decisions I’ve made have been based on whether I’m happy where I’m at. If I’m not, I just make a change. There’s something to be said about being financially stable, which I wasn’t for a long time, but I’m doing better now and I feel like I learned so much from that experience. Not everyone can do that because we all have different responsibilities, but we can all at least work toward what we want to do in some capacity. If you are truly passionate about something, it has to happen.
The most seemingly obvious things are the ones that are so hard to do for a lot of people. There’s a perception that people who are successful at something are just good and didn’t work at it. I want to show people that everyone creative is the same; everyone goes through the same struggles. When you feel like your work is not that good, you’re right there—you have to keep pushing. The moment you stop pushing is when you give up and then you’ll never know what could have been.”
March 26, 2014